nineteen

2007-09-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

my blog is so dead!! hahaha. oh well. chem/bio practicals tml. and i've no clue about bio. not even a tiny clue. and it has to tml. school ends at 315 yknow! so plus pracs, i'll only leave the place at 5. holycow! and school has not been good this week. not at all yuck! but i cant say too much. there are spies everywhere, and blogger aint safe, and so, i might stop using blogger. instead, i'll use my lj. it's 70% safer cos not anyone can read what's on it. unless, you're my friend on lj. so yeah. here's the link to it :
http://chelsywong.livejournal.com

2007-08-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

i've ugly lips now!!! :((( chester use his damn head to knock my lips and there's like a cut now! i'm so depressed okay!and the cut is still open!!!! :((( so my lips like half swollen!! it's so ugly! and i've 2 extra ulcer!!! so UGLY! yuckyuckyuckyuckyuck!! anyway chelsea vs man utd now!! so bye world!!

2007-07-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

hhahahahah! it's been 123456 years since i last updated. prelims in 15 days, but to be exact, 9 days. and if i do badly for my prelims, i can forget abt taking my o's next year. hurr!!! i cant believe it!! it's my promos exam! it's in 9 days!! 9 frigging days, and i'm still online!! and i've been watching my canto show!! i watched like 6cds today!! OMG!!! THIS SUCK, I WANA PULL MY HAIR OUT!! HURRR. anyway, i finally went shopping today!! like yay!!but it was quite rush. cos stupid mel kept rushing me. hurr. anyways, i got a 2 tops from forever 21, a shirt&shorts from esprit. AND!! my aunt got me abercrombie tops from states! hahahaha, it's LOVE! and it's really cheap there. hur. i wana go there! i wana stay there. i might consider furthering my studies there. they agree to let me further my studies oversea!!! hahahaha! so we'll see where my results take me to!! hahaha. i'm feeling so fat now. i ate so much today!! )): okay, i'm off to do chem. maybe i might watch my show again, it's so exciting okay!! yay!

2007-07-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

fcuktards are hell annoying. they seem to love annoying me. fcuktards la!! rarr. school again tml. i hate monday!! 4 frigging periods of F&N. and, xy has orals. so i'll be left alone. shittass. watched haunted school alone )): it's so freaky okay. but i didnt really get the ending. i've 3 more shows to go. plus my hongkong shows. no time for homework!!

i suddenly thought abt how my life will be after stc. i wonder how i'll do for o's. and whether i can get into a jc. and if i can get into uni, what should i major in. i dont really know what i wana be. i do not have any long term goal yet, i really do not wana be a disappointment again. i wana show those that belittle me that, i can achieve smth that they thought it's impossible for me to achieve. but, to do so, i need 100% self discipline. which is still lacking in me. and more self motivation!! i use to need motivators. but now, i dont really need it as i've realise the best motivation is self motivation.
take care everyone, i might need some time alone. lj should be a better place. ((:

2007-07-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

i just read smth i should not have read. hurr. it makes me feel so OMFG. she's so happy. and i'm not. hurrrrr

syf night ytd. it was quite boring. but the dance was pretty good. but the hall was so warm. the big fans were not of any help.grr. and i actually missed tennis for it. gosh. i'm in no mood to blog. so bye.

you anoying brat.

2007-07-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

i wana be loved. i wana get daily hugs, i wana talk on the phone with you till i fall asleep. i wana text you during class time. i wana say i love you.
!@#$%^&*((*%$$##@!! I'M SO PISSED NOW! I FEEL SO IRRITATED! I WANA CRY! I WANA SEE FIREWORKS AGAIN. I WANA LAUGH NOW!! I REALLY DO!! SOMEONE, MAKE ME LAUGH. HURRR. this suck. now, everything seem so wrong. i hope things arent that awkward?! i'm sorry.
fcucktards

2007-07-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

milk run today. the weather was frigging hot and there was hell alot of people and i could not breathe! and stupid shirt cant absorb sweat though it's thin. lousy shirt man. so we all walk and walk and walk. hahahah! we took short cut. thanks to yimei. we were like idiots running in central. HAHAHAHA. great world for ben& jerry!!! then home. my legs are so tired now! and my muscle still hurts, thanks to training on friday )):

yesterday
tuition at 130.met xy and karuna at redhill then cherie and tiong. 16ed to kallang. crystal sister is OMG. she's so noisy. she thinks xy and i are crazy. HAHAHA. reached kallang, we had to walk all the way to south entrance cos they didnt let us in from the west. walk, walk an walk. saw yimei, she brought us to our seats. got drinks, talk then watch the sg vs australia match. i was high ytd. i dont know why! hahahaha. OH AND THERE WERE FIREWORKS!!!! there were heart shaped fireworks! it was love okay! if only i saw it with someone special. sigh. hurr. then we took photos when it all ended. there were some rock band playing. but the song aint that nice. crystal and i wanted to look for marcus cheah. but he aint there. so we left. we walk and walk and walk. we didnt know how to get to the mrt station. we just anyhow walk and follow people. i think we made one big round okay. i was so tired!!! )): crystal mom came and send us back.

i wana play majong tml leh! but i wana study. i didnt study today, i feel guily. whatever, i know, call me a nerd if you want. i need to study. i need to STUDY!!!

2007-06-23T21:44:00.000+08:00

some photos of us and the playground((:

pink man

my butt hurt okay!!

blue man

I'M TALL!!

random one! HAHAHA

2007-06-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

my blog seem so dead! the last time i blog was like 12 days ago. hahaha. anyway, ytd was tiring. orals was suppose to be at 1030. when we got there at 1015, they said it starts at 11. WTH. i could have slept longer yknow. anyway, orals suck. what i said was really out of point. she had to get me back to the topic twice cos what i said was irrelevant to the question. and she kept laughing & i kept staring at her eye bags! she got puffy eyes la!! HAHAHA. i hope she wont fail me. canteen after orals to wait for xy, she took forever!!! we waited for more than 30 mins okay. they wanted to go town, i wanted to go vivo. so we were deciding where to go outside the school, whilst yimei went to get smth for ferlai. in the end, we went vivo. i think esprit clothes are love!!!! there were many nice tops there!!! & the price is also really nice. hurrr. so yimei, xy and i went to newurbanmale to get havaianas. we were there for a longg time! xy didnt know what colour to get, actually, she knew alr, but adeline got it. then she tried on the smaller one, which was just nice, but she wanted to try the bigger one, which was too big. so she took the smaller one. when yimei's mom came, she tried on 2 pairs as well, when we were abt to pay, the guy was like " you buy 3, the 4th pair is free" and i was like, are you serious?!? so yimei sis got the 4th pair. and she tried it many many times. and yimei feels really malu-ated cos she and her sis's havaianas are of the same size. HAHAHA. so we left newurbanmale to look for the rest at best. told them there was a cute guy, so they went in again to look. they kept laughing!! and i was red okay!! hurr.

carlsjr for lunch. it was hell funny!! jr was crazy! she kept laughing and pushing xy. we were really loud, esp yimei. so everyone kept looking. i coud not finish my burger cos the coke made me bloated and they kept making me laugh. so yeah. HAHAHA. everyone was crazy ytd, maybe, except adeline, HAHAH. mother garden after eating. jr bought a strawberry bag. WTH! it's so... kiddy! HAHAHA.

xy,yimei and i went to play at the playground. it was really crowded, so i didnt really play, we sat on the statue. but there was actually a small girl playing, when she saw us coming, she run away! haha. we're so mean. & we realise the playground is only for kids until 12! HAHAHAHA! when the rest came out, crystal and i went to play on the slide. it was so difficult!! i could not slide down! i kept stopping, and my butt hurt okay! cos got friction! HAHAHA! it's been so long since i last slide down man! so fun!! HAHAHAHA!

they went mini toons, whilst kjr and i went mother garden again to get her pouch that cost 9.50!! it's quite cute. cosI chose it!! took 61 back with her. we talked and talked and talked! she cant take long bus rides. she says it's bus sickness. cos if she take car or mrt, she is fine, only when she takes bus, she's not alright.

tennis at 6. my back hand suck man! my forehand lasted for 20 mins, my back hand only lasted for 12mins. see how much is suck! hurr! i was really angry at myself la! )): i guess i was tired. hurr. tuition later at 5, crystal is not going, so it's me myself and i. and my sister. i miss laura, i've not have tuition with her since god knows when. hurr. this is such a long post! haha,

2007-06-11T11:48:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling so !@#$%^&*( now! rarr!! i wana sleep in, but i cant!! and this stupid laptop is making me fuck crazy!!!! stupid! everythings so stupid now. i wana scream! but i'll end up crying. hurr. what loser. i hate this feeling, i hate it. i dont exactly know how i'm feeling now. maybe it's a mixture of feelings? hurrrrrrrrr!!!! i wana talk, but i dont feel like saying anything to anyone, lest things gets worst.gosh!!!!! i cant wait for tennis tml! i wana whack balls!!!! but my muscles are aching like shit. so i'm not sure if i can, hurrrrr. east coast later.):

2007-06-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

mum woke me up at 10. but i went back to sleep. then at 1030, kuo's text woke me up, plus chester's screaming and shouting, hurhur. so i finally woke up at 1045. i kinda forgot what i did early in the morning, hahaha, stm, anyway, my sister was stuck in the damn toilet. she was locked inside for nearly 2 hr!! the stupid locksmith took forever to come and when he came, he took forever to open the stupid door. hurhur. AND they made a mess in my house!!! then at arould 5 plus, jiarui and xuanya came over cos they wanted to see me mop floor. and jiarui was being a total retard. she kept laughing!! hahaha. and! chester broke my cup! i was really angry!!! so xuanya helped me with the cleaning up whilst jiarui watched xuanya and i clear the mess in my house, hahahaha. i swear, jiarui was super retarded!! she kept changing the channel, chester wanted to watch kids central, but we wanted to watch channel 8, then she just kept changing the channel to 33 and 3. then she kept accusing my sister and i. like wth. and jiarui keeps calling me maria.
jiarui: can you get me water
me: you want filtered water or boiled water
jiarui: err, i want nice water
me: whatever(walks to the kitchen and get water for her)
(after giving her the cup of water, i walk away)
jiarui: EH!CHELSY WATER NOT COLD!!!
xuanya: MARIA! WATER NOT COLD!!!!

but before that, they kept asking me to mop the floor. so chester took the stupid mop and made me mop it.so i just sat down and mop cos, i was alr sitting down when chester passed me the mop. so they're the first and last who will see me doing housework. so i walked them out to the bus stop.then i went to swim!! the water was superrrr coldddd!! but nice :). i think i swam 12 laps, in 20 mins. what a loser, i know. and swimming is good to vent your anger!! i like!! hahahaha. i dont like antm now!!! they are all so bitchy. like, this was worse then before. i dont like MELROSE!!! yuck. hurhur. i need to study!! i've not been studying!! i only study during tuition. gosh! i better start studying... soon

2007-05-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

so my maid left which means, i've to do housework. which i suck at. so far, i've washed the dishes and mop the whole damn house. AND i cooked rice! my rice was just nice okay! i'm so proud of myself!!! HAHAHA anyway i've chinese orals on friday. it's so sudden!! i dont wana go for it. my chinese is like sai!! hurhur. talked to mabel. i guess it's good we're finally talking things out. after sssssoooooo longggg. oh well. i hope things will be fine for her and ____. temple tml. early morning, hur! i'm in pain now!! i wana cry alr!!!!!! :( thats all for now.

2007-05-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

life is so unpredictable, yet i dont know how to cherish what i have. i've never expected he'll leave us so soon. i took him for granted. i always thought he was healthy, i never thought how important he was to us. though we arent that close, i do feel sad that he left us. chinese new year will no longer be the same, i'll have 1 less person to visit during cny, but 1 more person to visit next april. i've never spare a thought for him. i took him for granted. thinking about him make me pity him even more. he's single, stays alone and has no friends. it was only my relatives who paid their last respects to him. i wonder where he is now and what he;s doing.
it' all too late for regrets now, since he's gone, there's nothing much i can do. but i finally realise how impt life is. and i'll cherish myself as well as everything around me more.

i made many carless mistakes for emath2! i'm going to do well for emath1, hopefully, it'll pull my grades up.geog was alright. but i should have studied more. amath & ss was hell annoying. biology on monday.i'm going to do well for my bio paper. i must, cos my chem suck like !@#$%^&*.

i need sometime to think

2007-04-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

have i told you lately that i love you? have i told you just how much i care? if i haven't then i'm sorry but the busy lives we lead each day, sometimes means we've little time to say all the things we want to say.... things like 'i really love you for making my dreams come true and for making me so happy with all he wonderful things you do'

i cant seem to log into livejournal so here i am. it's been 123456789 years since i last updated. and i've nothing much to say actually. but there's smth inside me asking me to blog. oh well. there's smth i ought to say to someone. and i should have said this long long LONG time ago. but i didnt know how. but now i know.

i'm really really REALLY sorry for all the stupid things i've done that hurt you. cos seeing you hurt really hurts me too. but thinking of the happy times we spent together makes me smile. remember when you first held my hand? you said you actually didnt want to cos you were afraid things would be so awkward. but in the end you still did and i was smiling like an idiot. i've always wanted to know how it feels like to be in heaven.and during the times we were together, i got the answer. it was sweet, filled with nothing but honey. i doubt you know this but you really made me felt so wanted. i admit, it was really hard for me to get over you. so much so that i had to use someone to forget you. now, if anyone were to ask me if i still had any feeling for you or whether i still like you, i really do not know how or what to answer them. listening to those songs does bring back memories but i just feel so calm. maybe it's a sign saying that i've grown up, and i've become more mature. seeing you with some other girl in town makes me really really jealous. and hearing that you two might be together soon makes me hate you both more. i dont know why i'm feeling this way. i really dont. i guess i alr know the answer but i dont want to face it. i want to be in a denial. i dont want to face reality.i want to run away from the truth. if you were still here, you will tell me not to run away from anything cos it wont change anything and the only i could do is to face it. but the thing is, when you were with me, i wasnt afraid of anything cos i know you were there for me no matter what. but the thing now is, no one will save me when i'm drowning and even if i can swim, i rather drown and hopefully, the sea water will wash away all memories of you.
no matter what the future has in store for me, remember that you were always part of my life. and i doubt that part of life can ever be deleted. even if it could be deleted, hopefully there will be a back- up copy.
i feel like a moron now. what i just said was so contradicting. oh my cow lar!! take care my dear (:

2007-02-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

it's been a looooonnnnnngggg time since i last updated. and since yimei ask me to update and since i'm bored and free, i'll update. woke up early cos i was hungry. when i was about to eat, gwen called during chinese. ferlai scolded me.hahaha they had to do compo. after they put down, i ate my bak kwa! so nice man. haha i went back to sleep then i woke up at 1130. went for lunch then home. i'm such a good girl, first i did binomial then a few sums on functions but i stop cos i really hate functions and like 3 trigo qns.read through the ss text then i did chem tys.i think i did alot of work today. i'm such a good girl today! hahah. okay i'm getting bored! i really want to kayak! thats so random. anyway ca's coming!! damn. i've so much to study. it's like after cny!! oh damn. i was packing my drawer just now and i found so many candles! hahaha. i didnt know i have box full of candles. they are like so pretty okay. i'll post the pictures soon. thats if i remember to update. i think this post is so random!! haha anyway happy new year! (:

2006-12-31T11:08:00.000+08:00

i thought i'll blog here, since it's the last day of 2006.
i'll be lying if i said this year was a fantastic year, or it was an awesome year. though many things happen to me this year, i'm glad i still had my friends who never fail to make my smile. i wonder what will happen w/o them.
so it's bye bye 2006. oh well. few more days and it's back to school. i miss wearing school u. i miss alot of people!!
bbq at crystal's house later. i hope i can stay for the countdown! i dont wana usher in the new year alone! :(

2006-12-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

it's been some time since i last blog. i dont really like blogging now. i dont know why.i wana keep a diary.keeping a diary is so much better! cos i can write ANYTHING i want there. but thing is, i'm lazy to write. so i'll find another place for me to blog abt EVERYTHING and ANYTHING! and somehow, i dont think blogger is safe. anyway i cant wait for tuesday! i really wana play tennis!! it's been 123456 years since i last held my racket! i really miss whacking balls!! i miss alot of things! i miss school! but i dont wana go sch! it'll feel weird w/o ______!!!! oh damn. i shall not continue if not i'll say more things which are not meant to be said here.

2006-12-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

todays tiring. airport is a good place to destress!! aaahh and i spend so much today!! so that means for the next 7 days, i cant go out! so i'll just study.damn, i need money!!i feel so broke now.rarr.okay obml photos! i miss it so much okay!! i miss gossiping!! :((((

cherie yimei and i

kelly,yimei,cheng,charlene,cherie and i.

clique!

SEBASTIAN!!! he looks like some small kid!

jessica and i

kang kang!!

our dorms! we've to climb 150 steps up!!!

preparing for our item.

GINNY!!!

kang and i!! on our way to pangkor

TAHAN dorm.

BERINCHANG!

2006-11-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

i'm back! i miss camp alot! i miss the dorm. i miss berinchang.i miss the place so much. i remember how much i hated the place when we first reach lumut. i complain like shit and stuff. but after 10 days, i dont wana leave!!! last night, i felt weird! no lizard sounds! i'm so use to sleeping with lizards. omg. i miss gossiping with them! i miss them so much. i love my watch! BERINCHANG!!! i miss everyone from berinchang! lalita,sebastian,ginny,jessica,alyssa,laura,felicia,ashley,vivien,aileen,sheena,yang,yeo,joe and yuen. i'm really lazy to blog in detailed so what i've to say is OBML WAS SUPER SUPER SUPER DUPER FUN!

ginny: i'll always remember all the times we gossip esp when we are out for ex. and all the talks we had during the 10 days was just wow! i really miss those time ginny!

alyssa: smile more, dont be so dao. hahahah. we had a really good talk during the bbq night. i hope you felt better, after all, i understand what you're going through, anything i'll be here (:

laura: gossiping with you is fun!! and you still have not told me smth yet!! i'm still waiting okay!! hahah. i bet toufu man misses you (:

ashley: farting and burping queen! thanks for everything. your farts and burps make us happy!

felicia: kang kang. funny ass! dont be so emo please! it's super scary la! hahahaha. hows your face?

vivien: you and mr yeo better be tgt ah! i give you 6 months! hahahaha. and you never touch mr nice hair guy's hair!!! i bet you miss his hair. hahahaha. he's got nice hair right?!

yang and yeo: nice guys!! take care!

2006-11-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

leaving for obm tml morning. damnit! it's tml. i'm damnit scared! and and and and AND i'm still sick!!!!! DAMNIT! my voice is like so !@#$%^ well at least i can talk. i'll be mia for 10 days! hah. i've pack most of my stuff alr. i'm still thinking if i miss out anything. i'll miss alot of things when i'm away. i'll miss:
1. bed
2. phone
3. ipod
4. maid!!
5. chester
6. tv!!!!
7. computer
8. air con
9. chocolates, jellybean, sweets!
10. maybe, i'll miss you!

hahahahaha. 10 things/people i'll miss. i dont want them to group us! i wana be with clique! oh well i've nothing more to say. so bye people! i'll be back on the 28th!! :/

2006-11-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

the flu bug is attacking me. my temp was 37.9 now it's like 38.4! wth. obm in 7 days! i cant be sick!!! i shall ban myself from sweets, chocolates, fried food, junk food and sweet drinks. i feel so horrible!! eeyer! oh and judy is nice! she made me a new layout! JUDY TAN! THANK YOU! i wana go for training tml.i wana whack balls! my medicine is making me drowsy so i shall stop typing before i type more crap.

2006-11-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

met zephlyn at harbourfront/vivo before training. walk and walk and walk. went to get percy pig. bought sushi and off for training. we took a cab and the cad driver was sucha mood spoiler. he got damn bad attitude problem! first he kept shaking his head then he kept tsk tsk-ing and his bloody cab is so warm! we nearly died. AND, he said this to us when we wanted to pay him " make it quick okay" then he tsk again. wth la! i got his number plate down. disgusting old man! if only yimei was there! yimei!!!! zephlyn and i kana bully!!! training today was so waste of time. firstly only 3 people came, secondly coach was not there. he left his wife there to coach us. she's so horrible okay! and she does not know my name. wth.

2006-11-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

stc tennis'06

look at yimei!!!

open day was boring. there were so lil people okay! such a waste of my time. friendly against tkgs at bedok. the sun there was really good! i'm like burnt now!hahaha. collette is like damn cute. when she plays tennis she must make noise. if not the ball will go straight into the net. haha. and she remembers everything for me. where i serve,who's serve and our score. i think it's so fun! fun to play with colette and we won 2 matches!! hahah. i'm so burnt! my face is so red! and i love it!! natural blusher!! yays.now i love training! training on monday and i'm looking forward to it! yay!

2006-10-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

It's been a long and winding journey,
But I'm finally here tonight picking up the pieces walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes

My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here

It brought me here, to be with you
Ill be forever grateful, forever thankful

My dreams came true when I found you my miracle

If you could see what I see
Youíre the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness I Feel
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here

You know i love you baby
And if you could feel the tenderness I Feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here

2006-10-29T12:26:00.000+08:00

1. Honestly, what color is your wallet?
Black

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
Her

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
doing this survey

4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
I don't know

5. Honestly, have you done something bad
today?
does cursing peple count?

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
YES

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right
now?
YES! VERY

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the
time?
JIARUI, chocolate,sweets

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
No

11. Honestly, did you call your boyfriend
everyday?
I don't have one

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
No

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this
very minute?
Yes, i miss her!

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark
secret??
Yes ,who doesnt

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't
actually like?
uh.

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
it depends on my friends i guess

18. Honestly, are you confused with your
feelings?
not really

19. Honestly, who would you wanna be with
right now?
maybe her?

20. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yes

21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Don't know

22. Honestly, are u an easy going person?
depends on my mood

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?
cry, curse,text people

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you
were mad?
uh. run away?

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
No

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
Yes

*CRYING SECTION*

1. When was the last time you really cried?
thursday, 26th

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes

4. Do certain songs make you cry?
Yes!!

5. What usually makes you cry?
emo songs, when i miss people

*Happy Section*

1. Are you normally a happy person?
i guess so

2. What can make you happy?
jiarui!

3. Does being with your friends make you
happy?
yes! of course!!

2006-10-28T18:32:00.001+08:00

today's boring. some random pictures. chester was suppose to sleep but he wanted to take pictures.

okay i've nothing else to say!

judy: stop bullying jiarui i tell you. i'll smack you!
dearest: take care. please eat your meals! take care. i love you!

2006-10-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

today's boring. some random pictures. chester was suppose to sleep but he wanted to take pictures.

then chervy came.

okay i've nothing else to say!

judy: stop bullying jiarui i tell you. i'll smack you!
dearest: take care. please eat your meals! take care. i love you!

2006-10-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

and so yesterday was the last day of school. i cant believe one year just passed like that. and i took it for granted. i took ____ for granted. next year, no more ____!!! and soon, i'll be leaving for obm. everything does not seem right. oh man. and the holidays are making me gain weight! i wana run!! run the hell outta me! argh! i miss my ____! when will i ever see her again man! sigh! okay. yesterday was no good! seriously! xuanya says i was vulgar.ahah. during the dumb concert. then results. not that bad i suppose. but my rank in class is like omfg! we gave mr wong some the best teacher award trophy! he's leaving. we'll miss him! all his nag!! oh man.safra after school. we bowled. 2 games. i think i suck at bowling! :( but whatever. went to the arcade after that. played awhile then headed home with cherie.

today
tennis from 11-3. hahah. i love playing long hour of tennis! though it;s damnit tiring. but i love it! luched holland then town. paragon,taka,wisma,pacific plaza then home! i'm too lazy to type out all that we did. but it was fun! rachael was being an ass! she acted like an idiot! i love them both la! i'm damn tired! my legs are aching! and i'm sleepy! cant wait for our next outing! tanning, tanning and more tanning! haha. i'm a happy kid! i miss my ____ :( okay thats all for now!

clique with mr wong and miss yew

2006-10-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL! YOU'RE A BIG GIRL NOW! ONE MORE YEAR TO NC16 SHOWS!!! HAVE FUN!

yesterday was a really long day! we played taboo and black jack and i kept losing money! damn.oh and during chinese, jiarui and i went to the library to "meet" steph.hahahaha. omg! i cant believe i did that! wth. oh well! 2 more days! sigh.so training was bad! first i lost more money second i cant hit the ball for nuts! wth! i suck so much! so damnit saddening. fuck la! girlfriend was emo! and she says it's my fault. sorry man! i think i'm mad. seriously, i am VERY mad. rarr!

Every time our eyes meet,
This feeling inside me,
Is almost more than I can take!
Baby when you touch me,
I can feel how much you love me,
And it just blows me away.

I've never been this close to anyone or anything,
I can hear your thoughts; I can see your dreams,

I don't know how you do what you do,
I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side,
Forever and ever,
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

The smell of your skin,
The taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark.
Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me,
Touch every place in my heart.

Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

Every little thing that you do,
Every little thing that you do,
I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps getting better.
Wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side,
Forever and ever,
Every little thing that you do,
Oh, every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

2006-10-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

dearest:thank you for being there for me yesterday! i really needed that! thank you so much dearest! i love you! (:

my results were not too bad i suppose. i passed chinese! like omg! i finally pass chinese! anyway this whole week was boring. on friday almost the whole clique pon sch. only crystal xuanya yimei and i came! wth i wanted to pon but i didnt! haha oh well.i think i'm going mad! seriously!! omg xuanya! how? 3 more days and thats it! wth! ahh.

so i thoght this year would be better but i was wrong. instead this year is one of the worst year. despite all the shit that happen to me,i'm glad i've moved on. with the help of certain people of course!
dearest,yimei,xuanya: you all are always there for me when i needed someone to talk to! you all give me the best advice and i dont know where i'll be w/o you all! seriously! KUOJIARUI/GIRLFRIEND/BESTIE!: you always make me angry then you'll make me laugh and you always say i dont love you! but you are the one who dont love me :( though you laugh at the things i tell you and that you dont know what to say when i tell them to you (and it irritates me)but i dont blame you! cos you laughing at it will eventually make me laugh!
CLIQUE!: you all are like my laughing pill! you make me laugh so much! esp during recess, karuna,yimei,cherie and kuo! you 4 are like the laughing foursome!! you all make my life colourfull! i seriously dont know what i'll become w/o all of you!!
and of course those who have created an impact in my life, be it good or bad. w/o those impact, i think i'll still be really
dependent ( not that i'm very independent now) and i'll still be a softie and weakly! so thank you!

clique! <3

2006-10-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

finally! blogger was down. but now,it's fine! hahaha. exams are finally over!!! but results tml! and today i lost 10 marks in emath 1. and i completed my bio paper in half an hour.i think almost everyone finished their paper in half an hour.haha. oh and yimei peeled prawn for me again!! hahaha.
today's the first time the whole clique went out together! we went vivo city and i was fascinated by the playground!and it was malu-ating! anyway watch stay alive and it's scary! cos the sound effect damn loud and my legs were shaking.and and xuanya finally watch a scary movie!! she's so brave! hahaha.then we walk around to look for crystal's present.but cound not find anything!hur.omg! i think vivo city's roof top is so romantic! it's an ideal place to go dating!hahaha. went to have a late lunch and AND we saw this super super cute guy! omg he's so cute! even crystal thinks he cute!he has got nice cheeks! omg! hahaha. then home sweet home!i dont want to go school tml! and suddenly, i don feel like going for obm!!! like it's 10 days w/o my bed. w/o my PHONE. w/o my MAID. omg!

2006-10-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that's why it's hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
Itís hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

[CHORUS:]

Why, why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I'm always scared Iíll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere Iíve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it's win or lose
Now tell me why

[CHORUS]

I donít wanna be like your brother
I donít wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine

2006-09-30T16:44:00.000+08:00

yeaterday
mom send jiarui.cherie, adeline and i to the church. and adeline was suppose to wait for karuna but she didnt. she happily hopped into my car and when we reach the church, she had to walk back. how clever! patrons day was boring. i dont know why. it's kinda sad too. i was looking out for eyecandy and i saw her so many times (: the journey back to school nearly killed me. i was so tired and hungy! ate and talk and play for nearly an hour. ss,emath (we ended up doing amath) and F and N.home with jiarui and cherie. i wonder why i seldom argue with jiarui ? hahahah.oh and she bang me! she's such an ass! heh :( i feel like a nerd! i've been studying everyday and i chiong home everyday! bio,chem,geog,amath,emath,ss,f and n. i've to study! i've to study! i'll be a nerd! i'll be a nerd! and since exams coming,i think i'll stop blogging.unless my dearest girlfriend wants to blog for me.

2006-09-23T18:24:00.000+08:00

MY DEAREST GIRLFRIEND HAS GOT A SECRET ADMIRER AND IT'S DAMMIT FREAKY! AND SHE'S SO SCARED BUT IT'S SUPER FUNNY! OMG! GIRLFRIEND! MONDAY! MONDAY! EMATH! EMATH! HAHAHA. WENT TO NGEE ANN POLY ON THUR AND WE MADE ICE-CREAM AND IT WAS GREAT!! IT TASTED SO COOL AND THE LIQUID NITROGEN WAS LIKE WOW! HAHAHA. I'LL UPLOAD THE PHOTOS SOON!!YESTERDAY WAS SUPERB! SO FUN.PLAYED TENNIS WITH THEM AND IT WAS THE BEST!1 IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST PLAYED AND I'M SO RUSTY! OMG.I'M SO GOING TO START TRAINING MYSELF! HAHAHA. AND I LOST $25! SO IRRITATING. OH WELL. NOT FATED LA. TODAY'S SUCHA BORING DAY! TUITION AT 9. AND I SLEPT AT 3 AND I KINDA JUST WOKE UP! HAHA.WHAT A PIG (: OKAY I'M BORED!

One More Moment Lyrics
Ronin

Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you
Turn around to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory,
and time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,

And I want you by my side,
and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong

2006-09-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

OMG KUOJIARUI!! I DID NOT SAY I'LL TREAT YOU TO BEN AND JERRY!!AND I'M NOT A NERD LA! YOU ARE SO !@#$%^&!

2006-09-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

I THINK IM CRAZY.ON FRIDAY, I MADE JIARUI, CRYSTAL AND CHERIE LAUGHED LIKE MAD! :DDD HAHAHA! JIARUI ALMOST DIED OF LAUGHTER. AND I THINK IM SUPER MEAN,CAUSE I WENT HOME WITH JR, CRYSTAL, CHERIE, JUSTINE AND MICHELLE. THE WEATHER WAS SUPER HOT SO I DECIDED TO TAKE CAB BUT JR,CRYSTAL AND JUSTINE DIDNT WANT TO TAKE CAB WITH ME. BUT I TRIED PERSUADING THEM SO FINALLY THEY AGREED,AND THEY AGREED BECAUSE I'VE TOLD THEM THAT I WILL PAY $$$2.50 FOR THE CAB FARE. SO, I WENT TO HAIL FOR A CAB AND THE CAB STOPPED FOR ME. BUT SO COINCIDENCE THE BUS195 CAME SO INSTEAD OF TAKING THAT CAB WHICH HAD STOPPED FOR ME I WENT UP THE BUS WITH CRYSTAL. JR AND JUSTINE DID NOT KNOW THAT I HAVE WENTT UP THE BUS THEY THOUGHT I WAS BEHIND THEM WALKING SO THEY GOT INTO THE CAB WITHOUT THE BOTH OF US, AND END UP JR GOT TO PAY FOR THE DAMN CAB FARE AND MOREOVER THEY ACTUALLY DID NOT WANT TO TAKE A CAB.SO, GUESS WHAT HAPPENED JR AND JUSTINE GOT SUPER ANGRY WITH ME. THEY HAD TO BUY ICECREAM TO COOL THEMSELVES DOWN.SO I THINK IM DARN MEAN. I WILL TREAT THEM TO BEN&JERRY ICECREAM. HAHAHAHAH !

& IM A LAZY PIG. IM A NERD TOO. ((:

2006-09-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

i'm going to blog abt a person.this person is always here for me.she listen to everything i have to say.though she cant give me good advice,but she'll be there for me whenever i need her!she's the best person to talk to when you're sad cause she'll laugh at whatever you say to her.and her laughter will make you laugh.though we always argue over the slightest things,i still love her the most!she's like my happy pill! especially when i'm really depressed,she'll keep pestering me to make me laugh.all her lame actions and silly jokes and her funny laughter and they way she argue with me makes me laugh.hahaha. she's non other than

KUO JIARUI!!!omg! KUO! I CANT BELIEVE I'LL EVER SAY THIS BUT WHEN I SAW THE PHOTO WE TOOK TOGETHER,I REALISE WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH!I STILL CAN REMEMBER HOW WE HATED EACH OTHER IN SEC 1.AND IN SEC 2,XUANYA ANISSA YOU AND I BECAME CLOSE AND WE EVEN THOUGHT OF BEING TAI TAI IN 21 MORE YEARS! AT THE END OF THE YEAR,WE WERE SO CLOSE TO EACH OTHER. WE WERE SO SCARED THAT WE ALL WILL BE SEPERATED FROM EACH OTHER THATS WHY WE TOOK THE SAME SUBJECTS.WHEN WE WENT BACK TO SCHOOL TO SEE WHICH CLASS WE WERE POSTED TO,WE WERE DAMN SAD.CAUSE WE WANTED TO BE IN 3MM.BUT BECAUSE OF AMATH,WE COULD NOT.THIS YEAR IS THE BEST YEAR! I ENJOY EVERY BIT I SPEND WITH YOU.ARGUING WITH YOU MAKES OUR FRIENDSHIP STRONGER AND WITH YOU AROUND,I'LL NEVER BE BORED.YOU KNOW HOW TO CHEER ME UP WHEN I'M ANGRY/SAD.BUT THINGS IS,I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE YOU HAPPY WHEN YOU'RE PISSED!THATS SMTH I'LL LEARN!REMEMBER ALL THE TIMES WHEN WE HAVE A HEART TO HEART TALK?IT'S SIMPLY THE BEST.WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND THERE'S MORE COMING! THERE'LL BE OBM SOON AND WE'LL HAVE MORE TIME TO TALK! REMEMBER THIS KUO: I LOVE YOU!YOU'RE MY BEST GIRLFRIEND/BESTEST EVER!

I LOVE YOU!

2006-09-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging but i dont know what to say.so many things has happen recently and i need it to stop! aahh! sometimes i wished i was never borned! argh.okay happy moments!

the f and n people at some egg farm.

clique 1

clique2

xuanya egg and i

sherlyn,evan,xuanya,rebecca and i

us(:

clique with mrs low

the class!

2006-09-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday and the day before was bad.really bad.oh well.

the first few months was like heaven.you were really sweet and you were always there for me but as time pass,everything change.i only saw your true colours after 6 months?how blind can i get?you made so many mistakes yet i gave you many chances but you didnt know how to make use of it.time and time again you hurt me.you said i'm not commited to you/the relationship but have you ever thought if you were commited to me?NEVER! you always have so many people to care about that you hardly even care about me.have you ever thought how i felt?when i needed you,where were you? now,you're blaming me for everything.you said i should have cared for you more,spend more time with you etc.but hello! i need some time for myself okay! you always get jealous when i tell you things and when you tell me things,i'm not allowed to get jealous or you'll get angry with me.wtf! sometimes i really wonder if you ever loved me?now when you and your girlfriend are having problems,you tell me all abt it and you expect me to go back to you saying how much you regret not cherishing our relationship.and if you didnt know,i told myself on the day we broke up that it's over between us! and i told you it wont work out between us again because you dont understand me! not at all!! you never bother abt how i feel so why should i care abt your feelings?you assume i'm lying to you abt how my girlfriend treat me.well one day we'll go out and you can see how well my girlfriend treat me.and stop your gf from calling me. i dont have much time to entertain her.oh and by the way,i am not the one harassing you,you are the one who keep sending me msg trying to make me melt! but i'm no longer so soft so it wont work.quit trying!now listen,i dont want or need you anymore!stop bothering me!

heh. i'm bored now.and those were for me to let it all out! anyway thank you jiarui,yimei,mabel and xuanya for talking sense into me! i really appreciate it!thank you (:and thank you for always being there for me when i needed you all.thank you once again!and i love you all!

2006-08-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

omg! i think this is super super ultra freaky!today i've got 2 unknown person adding me on msn and thing is i dont know them and when i ask them,one of them said,they know me through irc and i DONT chat there.the other claims i gave him my email add through habbo hotel and again i DONT play online games.this is so freaky okay! like who the hell is giving people my email add?omg! this is so scary!!i feel so unsafe!!like it's so scary! eeyer!omg!omg!omg!

AMERICANS NEXT TOP MODEL!!cant wait for it tonight!!hahahaha.training was kinda slack.but not the physical part and my knee is hurting like !@#$%^&^%! and my back feels so stretched!omg!now i do not like math! i mean,i dont get anything miss sim is teaching.and it's so boring!F and N was slack cause kim ong was not in school so xuanya,wong and i had a heart to heart talk and it's good!we'll have more soon!!double period chinese after geog was boring as usual.lao shi scolded us.she says smth abt our orals but i dont know what.hahaha.then then wong,zhenyi,karuna,crystal,ferlai and i started talking abt scary things.like the haunted places in our school!hahaha.omg.thinking abt it scares me so i wont say anything!training then home!i've got lots of work to do!6 amaths papers,amath tys:trigo whole chapter,function whole chapter and som linear law work. worksheets on functions,sets and matrices!and they are all due after the holidays!omg save me! but i bet i'll feel smart and nerdy after doing all of those!okay okay.i've off to do MATH!

2006-08-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

i cannot stand some people who keep on pretending that nothing happen at all when so much things has happen.she is such a fcuking cow who thinks everyone likes her and that she's popular.the only reason why i talk to her is becuse of _____.if not for ______,i will not talk to her la! she's sucha idiot! she thinks everything is okay and that she can do things as she please. she thinks too highly of herself alr.okay from my point of view,i think she's not fair to those involve. she makes use of them and yet they're still willing to give her chance and she's still pretending nothing has happen.i cannot stand it anymore! and if you're reading this,please go and think if you're worthy of their friendship.and what you've done to them is fucking hurtful.and just to tell you,you're a coward!you do things to get sympathy from others but apparently,no one cares about you.cause you mean nothing to them.and you're so called good friends means nothing to you dont they?if they mean so much,why the hell are you still doing this?rarr

that's how i feel about _____.i'm sleepy.i've been sleeping late this week and that means i'll need to sleep soon.cause i've been waiting for this day for 12345 days!okay what i'm saying does not make sense so i think i'll just sleep and not type rubbish.

2006-08-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

my sunday's boring!! tuition was boring! we did trigo and i understand!but it's so confusing.i only understand the first part.the rest are like ?!@#!so i've decided to study study study.i promised myself from now on,i'm going to do at least 2 hours of math a day! i swear i must must do better than ____or i swear i'll just cry again!!and i want to study really hard! i want my A's.i want to forget _____totally and concentrate on studying!rarr.okay i'm bored!!

You Will Die at Age 79

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

You Are Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream

A classic and an original, no wonder everyone snakes your style!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

2006-08-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

flag day today.united square has got many rich people.but they're so stingy!but it's better than last year.they had pizza for lunch while jiarui and i had ben and jerry! it's so so so nice!!we sat for one hour before started selling flag agin.and we went to visit the learning lab. i think learning lab 2 is really cool! the doors are like wow la.like matrix.hahahaha.I WANT TO GO BACK TO TLL!! but they're all for rich kids.and my mummy does not allow.we talk and walk around united square until 445 then we left and back to school.went town for dinner with yimei and crystal.went fish and co.the foods good.and and yimei peeled our prawns while i cut fish for her!she better be honoured cause i NEVER cut fish for anyone! hahaha.okay look at our food!!

sharkie freeze and jungle freeze!

the best fish and chips in town!!!

seafood platter!!

2006-08-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

You Are A Jealous Ex

You're not quite over your past, and you are hurt that your ex is moving on
You're no longer in love, but you're not done with being pissed
Jealous of any happiness that comes your ex's way, you still can't let go

What Type of Ex Are You?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream

Unpredictable and wild, you know how to have fun.
You're also a trendsetter who takes risks with new things.
You know about the latest and greatest - and may have invented it!

You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

2006-08-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

i was suppose to be like hyper this week.cause so many people are emo.so i thought,i wont be like them.but today's horrible!!i got my emath paper back and it's super horrible!!!my marks are like lower than ____! i was so angry okay!i wanted to punch someone,strangle someone and scream!!!!!omg! and finally today,i let everything out.all in one shot.i feel so much better after that.training is boring.only 4 people went.so it's boring.and i anyhow hit all the balls.so it flew everywhere and i think yimei was angry!cause she feeds nice balls and when i return,it's all so !@#$%!$.so yeah.oh and chinese paper's a disaster.AND AND MRS CHU IS A BIG FAT IDIOT ASSHOLE!!! she's so irritating.she took 5 mins off our paper.cause we started late and she was like, i dont care when the bell ring i will collect it from you.no extra time cause you all take your own sweet time.like what rubbish! she's so abcdefg!!!rarr.flag day tml.so not looking forward to it and the place we're going to brings back so much memories! argh.who cares.it's all over la!

2006-08-11T20:03:00.000+08:00

i think bowling's addictive!and it's fun fun fun! but not when you dont strike.anyway today's a tiring day.i told myself to talk less in the morning cause my stupid throat is killing me.but still,i cant control.f and n for the first 3 period w/o practical kills.it's so boring and i had no company.i swear amath test was a total disaster.out of 4 qns,i can only do 1 and that 1 qns is only 1 mark! so i think i'll get 1/10? AND AND AND for the first time,i failed my amath test! it's so saddening!!! i want to kill myself for not spending enough time studying!rarr.i'm so angry! and that anger lasted till i met my _____.which was only after achool.anyway, ss and emath was boring as usual.then bowling at marina south. the place is so old!and it only started at 4.and i had 2 strikes and 2 spares before gwen came.but after she came it was like !@#$%^&*!@#. i wanted to kill her very much la! anyway i think the way pretty girl bowls is like her back is made of rubber.like the way she bend is like wow! my back will just break la!hahaha and home sweet home!

2006-08-04T19:35:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday laogong!remember that i love you okay! enjoy your day dear!

today's kinda boring and tiring cause my dear girlfriend's down with high fever.and i was such a poor thing during emath! anyway,first 3 periods were f and N.we had open book test cause 3mm had their practical and i love wanru's pasta.it's nice!nice!NICE!hahaha.then amath.miss sim was not in a good mood today and she's scary.recess then ss and emath.i realise that i've got to study for many test!i've amath and emath test on monday and on friday. amath test again! like omg.and ca2 is in 2 weeks?and i think i'll fail BIO,chinese and GEOG. my bio teacher is super horrible.and the geog teacher is like always not teaching geog.she keeps asking:what do you all want me to teach? and on wed she said"i'll bring tarot cards next week and teach you how to play and it will help in your exam" is she teaching us how to cheat?anyway tuition after school and mummy picked me up.and home i am!i'm really tired!and i'm going to be busy tml and sunday! that's all for now!

2006-07-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

You Don't Have to Say You Love Me

When I said, I needed you
You said you would always stay
It wasn't me who changed, but you
And know you've gone away

Don't you know that now you're gone
And I'm left her on my own
Then I have to follow you
And beg you to come home

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me
I can't help I love you
But believe me, I'll never tie you down

Left alone with just a memory
Life seems dead and so unreal
All that's left is loneliness
There's nothing left to feel

---------------

2006-07-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

i cooked yesterday!!for practical.and the foods edible.though yimei and crystal said it's not nice,i still ate it.cause i cook it all by myself!! anyway during practical,i kept panicking.cause i didnt know how much to add and all.and the whole kitchen was quiet and only audrey and i were talking.hahaha.we had badminton match after school and i played with jiarui and we lost!we were winning one okay.but i dont know why we lost in the end.and gwen helped us!hahaha.and i'm happy for the moment!!cause i found my pretty girl's blog!she's so pretty okay!omg.oh and i need to make my fonts larger cause JIARUI,YIMEI XUANYA AND CRYSTAL says it's too small for them!so i'll change it.i got my phone back and everything is gone!all the sweet messages that cheer me up is gone!and i cant expect you to send them again.cause it's different now.and and my photos in my phone memory's gone too.it's so saddening!

2006-07-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

it's funny how the person i trust MOST turns out to be the person who hurt me the MOST! i mean.i trusted her alot and i told her every single thing.even the slightest thing! omg i just realise how blind i am! i hate her! she's such a bitch! she has no right to scold me behind my back.and i've never ever say anything bad behind you!and that's cause i've always treated you as my close friend.now i'm not going to trust you and i'm going to make you iriitated everytime i get a chance to. you've change so much.you're like so boy-crazy and you're ruining people's relationships!!!you're such an idiot! i dont not like you and i'll never ever ever ever trust you again in my whole entire life!i swear! i trusted you for 2 years and that's enough!go away!!!shoo :(

i am worth $1,158,450 on HumanForSale.com
buy me if you have that much money!
my phone's sick!!it's like total blackout okay.i cannot lose anything in the phone.there's so much things inside okay.i know i'vee to let it go and one way is to delete those stuff.but it's just too soon! everything's in a mess! i want to cry alr! but i cannot.and i wont.i told myself that i'll never cry for you again!

judy:you better make up your mind or you'll lose both!and what i told you just now online.you better shut up eh.hurry we need to talk alot alot soon!!

2006-07-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

just came back from the musical and my poor feet's hurting.all the stupid's shoes fault.it's quite funny though but the show's a lil draggy.which made me quite rest-less.hahaha.anyway.met crystal at her house's bus stop at around 5 then took a bus down to toa payoh.we were really early.so we ate and played.pearl talk to us and she was really scary!she was like, if you dont usher properly,we'll usher you out.like wow man!!!hahahaha.then walk up and down the stairs which was seriously tiring.and i was perspiring and at the same time,i was sneezing!

this week feels really long.i dont know why but it's like finally the weekends.but somehow, the weekends dont seem the same as before. we use to have long chats on the phone till i fall asleep and somehow,you'll wake me up with your lamest jokes.and we'll gossip about the people you dont know and the people i dont know. we use to be so close to each other like honey to the bee. everything's gone now. no more long chats. no more lame jokes. no more gossip. no more you. just me holding on to those sweet memories.

2006-07-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

this whole week was not good.emo emo emo!!!!

i started thinking what went wrong and all and after while i thought again, why bother. you never really care did you? you only bother bout those people around you. why was i so gullible and believed you when you said"i love you.can you be mine?" why did i foolishly agree? why didnt i make things clear with you earlier on? why must i go through it again? i hate you yet i love you and i miss you! hope you're doing fine.

2006-07-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

What I've Been Looking for

Ryan:
It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

Together:
You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

Sharpay:
This feelings like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for

Sharpay:
So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Together:
Don't have to say a word

Ryan:
For so long I was lost
So good to be found

Together:
I'm loving having you around

Ryan:
This feeling's like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
what I've been looking for

Together:
Doo Doo DooDoo
Doo Doo DooDoo
Do Do

Woa-ah-ah-oh

2006-07-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

started the day with double period bio which was boring.i dont like my bio teacher!she's iriitating.i want miss lim!she's 100 times better.anyway,i scolded the teacher twice cause i told her to let us copy the notes first then she teach.but she kept talking as i was writing and since i'm bad at multi-tasking,i did not get what she was teaching.and she has short tongue so the way she speaks is really funny.and she's too soft!!!AND! theres bio tml AGAIN! pe made me realise that it's time to go for train! my stamina is sssooooo bad!i wonder how i'll survive the 12 rounds for nafa man!oh! and i'm going for training tml!hahahah :)like finally.english,recess,cme then emath.i dont like my seat during emath cause firstly,it's only jiarui and i.secondly,there's no crystal to fight with me.thirdly,there's no xuanya to teach me! it's horrible okay.and the group's like so quiet cause usually we're the one making the most noise.HAHAHAHAH.sweet teacher did not come today so we had a relieve teacher.she complain that we were noisy when we do our work.and i anyhow do it.since it was mcq,i just wrote any number i like.Great world after school with cystal to get stuff and we spent $60 over on hair band,earrings and necklace.but it's nice!!we ate pretzels!my favourite.and we saw 2 ah bengs in macs.they were scary la.yuck.then back home to sleep.there's all i did today.i'm boring!!!hahahahahah.

2006-07-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

had syf today and i just bathe.woke up early today cause jiarui came over to watch our show.it's a sad sad show la!and we could not catch the ending!so irritating!and chester did not want to play with her!hahahaha.cause he's too shy.mom send us to school and we rushed cause leslie was scolding.then we stone in the hall and listen to the nominated house capain talk.it was rather boring.then i cant remember what happen till we reach the stadium.the place was really packed.and we had to walk for a long long time before we reach the stadium.the sun was a total killer.it made my headache worse!and my nose was running away.syf was quite boring cause we went through the whole thing 3 times and watching the same thing 3 times can be rather boring.and many many people were crazy over peter gn!people like yimei!she was totally crazy i tell you.now i think i know what's her wall paper! hahahahaha.reach school around 920 and went for dinner at zion rd.then home.the medicine i just took is making me feel drowsy.so i think i'm going to sleep soon.goodnight world!

2006-06-24T10:39:00.000+08:00

my fever just subside. it shot up to 39.7 two nights ago.and now i'm having flu.irritant!school's starting soon which means i'll have less time for tv and sleep!tuition later! i'm feeling so bored now! like i didnt even go out this whole week!but i did get many things done.hopfully,everything will be fine,soon.

it's time to say goodbye.

2006-06-20T07:53:00.000+08:00

my fever shot up to 38 degrees early this morning.and i feel like i'm burning!!and there's orals today.what luck.my hand's shaking as i type.hahahahs.yesterday had syf practice.it was so boring.cause it was raining so we only manage to practice 2 songs.after syf,went great world for lunch with crystal,karuna and adeline.after that,we went round the place looking for clothes and shoes.and they made me wear a super high think heel!i nearly fall okay.hahahs.and there were many many nice shoes there!really!after awhile i left and went home.shower,tooka nap.when i woke up,my whole body was aching!and i had slight fever.

fever kills okay!jiarui and crystal is suppose to come after orals but because of the fever,they cant come and play!hmpt!anyway i'm getting drowsy so i think i'll take a nap now so maybe,i can still make it for orals.

2006-06-18T16:08:00.000+08:00

i had super bad dream yesterday!it was so horrible and it felt so real!it's so horrible and it's bothering me!and i dont like it!it's so horrible!and it's irritating!!man!i cant wait for my dearest girlfriend to get back!i've got many things to tell her!!and it's her birthday today!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND/BESTIE/KUOJIARUI! I BET YOU'RE MISSING YOUR 'BOYFRIEND' NOW!HAHAHAS.HURRY COME BACK AND CALL ME!

syf practice tml.i've to be in school at 645! and there's orals on tue.syf practice again on wed and fri!which means no going out this week!i'm feeling horrible now.and i've no more mood to blog.bye people

2006-06-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

Best Day Of My Life

Woke up around a half past ten
Canít believe that Iím late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my post and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same

It goes to show
You never know
When everythingís about to change

Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I
Had the best day of my life

Canít say exactly what it was
Sheís not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,
But from now on
Iím gonna be a different man

Just another day
Started off like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I
Had the best day of my life

I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everythingís about to change

Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I
Had the best day of my life

Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I
Had the best day of my life

2006-06-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

training today was rather slack.all i did was play matches AND 30 skips which isnt so bad..but i got tanner cause the sun was so hot!i nearly died!before training,went to meet zephlyn.colette and yimei.we watched over the hedge.the show was funny.and cute!!STELLA!!HAHAHAHA!inside joke!oh and we went to the arcade too!we played air hockey and collette and i lost to yimei and zephlyn.we lost TWICE okay!like so @#$%^%&*!rarr.then training.omg.what i'm saying is so not in order!! it should be,we went to the arcade first,then the movie then training!!omg!but whatever la!i'm sleepy now!and i'm lazy!

2006-05-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

it's holidays now.but it does not feel like it.i still have so much thing on next week.trainings,meetings and lessons..this holiday i MUST take a good break.so much thing has happen this past few months and in i just need a break! i need to be all alone for awhile..i wana go to sentosa!i need to go there badly.or maybe somewhere far away will do! rebecca!if you're reading this,let's go somewhere someday where we can let everything out!! okay enough of these crap.

my results are not as good as i expected.i deprove so much.esp for my combined humanities.it's so saddening!my brains are not absorbing as much as it should i guess..i want to have a brain transplant!so that i'll have a smarter brain and i'll become smarter so that i'll know what _ are thinking!aaahhh.anyway i think my eyecandy is supercute!!hahahahas.i have too many to count la..

training starts tml and I AM GOING! i need to lose those fats.i've been eating like a pig and i think i've become one!i keep eating like there's no tml..so hopefully,training tml will help me!

TIA!!I NEED TO TELL YOU SMTH! I MISS YOU! IT'S BEEN LONG TIME SINCE WE HAD A HEART-TO-HEART TALK!!I MISS THE TIMES WHEN YOU'LL MAKE ME LAUGH WITH YOUR LAME-EST JOKES!AND KNOW,WHENEVER I SEE YOU,YOU LOOK SO DEPRESSED OR RATHER,YOU ARE DEPRESSED.CHEER UP LAOGONG! I LOVE YOU!

2006-05-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

chelsy is such a lazy pig! i wonder why she has a blog when she rarely updates!
so i'm helping her type smth here to make her blog looks...nice?ahahah :)
i miss you chelsy wong! where are you ? ahahaha.okay enough of my rubbish!

ilovechelsywong!

2006-05-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

Fort Minor Where'd You Go Lyrics
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

2006-04-14T11:52:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i last updated!!hahas.so many things has happen recently!and i dont know how to deal with it.it's just not what i expected it to be.it seems like we're not in it together.you dont even talk to me as much as i talk to you.i guess you have too many people around you to care about.and it's only when i'm sick,then you'll really care.so looks like if i really need your love,i've to stay sick.oh well..

SA1's coming and i've yet to do my revision.i dont think i'll be able to spend much time with you.and you should start studying before you regret it.

2006-03-18T13:50:00.000+08:00

i'm sick again!sore throat,cough and block nose.thank god my nose aint running away!and my headache is still as bad.i nearly died during tuition man..rarr.i feel so sick that i dont want to go back to school..everyone is sick now!yimei's stomache isnt feeling well.audrey wong is sick.jiarui is still sick.my brother has flu.is this the sick season?

each dream of mine begins and ends with
loving thoughts of you
and you're the most important
part of everything i do.
you're on my mind and in my heart
each moment of the day.
no one else in all the world
could make me feel this way
i love you.

2006-03-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like blogging abt taman.it's way too long.hahas..but i just miss it.like the highness and stuff..i miss the people there!!esp the part where we went hiking!!so funny.hahas.i dont feel like blogging now..my headache kills!!rarr

2006-02-26T08:54:00.000+08:00

nothing much happen this week i suppose.was really busy studying for all the test.emath on monday!i better not make careless mistakes.i cant afford to cause all my test are really horrible..have not started studying on ss yet.and i know nothing.chem too.i've not been listening in miss phee's class.i only paid attention on friday which was kinda late cause ca is on tue and i've no more chem lessons before that!rarr.i guess i'll put more effort in bio.for my other subjects i think it'll be okay la.oh chinese too!i dont get a shit on what that stupid teacher says.it's either she talks too fast,or i'm just slow?but i think it's she who talks too fast cause cystal does not understand her.she cant teach okay!i bet i'll fail my paper.but i dont want!BUT her lessons are super boring!!guess i'll study the chapters MYSELF.i suppose i'm only prepared for my amath paper.after 3 hours of tuition.i feel satisfied.BUT i got confused about certain stuff.shit..rarr.i better go and study!

Selena
Dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too...

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight!
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
and I wonder if you know I am there
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you.

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight!
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me

(ahh ahh)
Corazon...
I can't stop dreaming of you...
No puedo dejar pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming...
Como te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you!
Mi amor, come te extrano

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
and said "I love you!"
I love you too!

And now I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly!

2006-02-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

f and n test in the morning.it suck.i'm sure to fail it.pub talk in the hall was boring.mrs gomez didnt want to let us off for math class.so we were late reached miss sim's clas at only 1125 i think.kinda pointless cause we only did one surd question.i passed my surds test!haha.e math then double bio.boring day la.but i think tml will be worse.i'm NOT looking forward to fun splash.and i'm not wearing the skorts!i'm seriously in love heaven knows by rick price.it's such a perfect song.

Heaven Knows
Rick Price
_____

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on

So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

2006-02-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

today is such a disaster.

todays valentine's day does not feel like one.

i miss those good times.those old good times.

i'm feeling lazy and tired and moody and scared.

2006-02-09T11:17:00.000+08:00

my face is red!like really red.miss sim says i'm drunk!!hahas.i'm suppose to study for all my test.i've emath and bio test tml and geog and ss test on friday.i've not started studying yet and i know nothing on ss cause it's so boring.yuck.lessons was pretty okay today.played some stupid game with ah-lai during chinese.and my lao shi know that i was eating in class.but she didnt really care.hahas.f and n test today and i did not even know.so obviously i screw the whole paper up.but whatever.i dont really care.after recess was pc then emath and amath.i kinda realise smth today..that ahem thinks very highly of herself and that she rarely ask people how to do sums.cause she's "smart"?oh man.i feel so disgusted now.eeeewww
i dont like her!!!okay i better not type too much in case she reads it.

i'm feeling so lazy these few days.i slept really early yesterday cause i was so tired!my face hurts la.i dont want it to peel la.i better put lotion on my face tonight.i'm so full now!i think i ate too much biscuit so i shall skip dinner tonight.

2006-01-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

i think i'm going to be sick soon.or it i think i am sick already.i've block nose,sore throat and my headache and my tummy hurts la..i hate it when i'm sick during cny and then i wont be able to eat the bbq pork!!!and my mummy bought alot okay..i dont care la.i'll just eat..worse come to worse,i'll just take tons of medicine.hahas.i'm so sleepy now la.my eyes are going to close soon!!but i dont want to..but i want to sleep.my eye bags are super obvious now can..house visiting tml.mum's side.then my dad's side will come over to my place..

i get pissed really easy now!!just now during dinner,i got real pissed with everyone that talk to me.and this morning,i woke up crying!!hahas.weird la..

yesterday was good!went to great world and watch i not stupid too with jiarui,cherie and crystal.the show rawks can.the show made me cry more then 5 times but it's funny though.i want to watch again la..

okay i have no more mood to type already.my head really hurts la.oh and happy new year!

2006-01-24T12:51:00.000+08:00

sheryl crow-the first cut is the deepest

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

2006-01-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

fridays are horrible!!!i hate it when there's chem!

ss.i wanted to sleep but mrs tan kept looking at me.horrid.chinese next then double chem..I DONT LIKE CHEM LESSONS..it's boring and i feel so lonely today cause sara didnt come today and i sat there like an idiot okay.i was 'paying attention' cause miss phee kept looking at my direction.and if i dream,she'll scold..but her lessons are really boring though she trys to make it interesting.hahas.but at least dearest jiarui is right infront of me.hahas.

geog then amath.we had to this silly thing for amath.we have got to compete against each other and see who finishes a equation the fastest and the winner must say 'show down'.and you'll win points.and there;s this vietnam girl.she's pro i tell you.like 2 min to solve one equation and i feel so jealous!cause if she slow down a little,i'll get the points!rarr!!!!

2006-01-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

i feel weird.i feel all alone.like i'm the only one left in the world.i hate it.it makes me think so much and cry so much.i thought i had let go?i thought i put it all behind me and moved on?i thought i really smiled.i thought time is all i need?but i'm wrong.all that didnt really happen.i dont think i really let go.and i did not really moved on and i doubt my smile was real.why?do i not want to let go?or i cant?i dont know.i'm just not myself anymore.i'm tired.i really am.i really want to end all these things and start anew.i want to be a new person.but i know i cant.i'll still be stuck here.in this place where no one will ever want to step into-hell.

it's been 18 months yet nothing happen.i keep hoping and praying that some day,you'll be back.but i'm scared to have you back.what if you slip away again.esp when i needed you?will you stay if i ask you to?will you let me love you again?

i'm sorry i could not control myself.i'm just letting things out here.there's no other way.besides..but i wont.i'm a good girl.

2006-01-01T11:15:00.000+08:00

todays the last day of 2005.how fast.like 12 months gone..like gone for good!well it has been a hard year for me i must say.so many things happen!oh well.i wont say anything here cause i'm not suppose to.but those who know it,good for you.i dont feel like blogging but i have to.it's the last day of the year!oh well.i was kinda moody today so i went shopping!met rachel downstairs and off we went..first we went to taka jewellery to get her mum present..saw many many rings which were super pretty!!!i could not stop looking so i decided to get one.bought this ring and it's so sweet!hahas.then we went taka and i bought stationary for fun cause the stuff there are just so cute!hahas so we walked and talk then i saw watches so i bought one.it's the pink baby-G one and rachel got the white one!walked around for awhile then cab back..countdown again tonight!

2005-12-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

In no particular order, list down :
-3 peoplel you talk to online,
1.crystal ng
2.xuanya
3.liwei

-4 people you see at sch,
4.tia
5.anissa
6.audrey wong
7.judy tan

-2 tchrs,
8.miss vino
9.mrs low

-3 people you love going out with,
10.tia
11.jiarui
12.xuanya

and 3 people in your sms inbox (rly searches through inbox)
13.jiarui
14.jolene
15.adeline

so what do you think of no.4?
she's my laogong and a bimbo.she makes me laugh.hahas

how wld you feel if no.4 slap yr face?
i'll slap her back.

how nice is no.6?
she's nice.hahas

on a scale of 1-10, rate how goodlooking no.5 is.
eh 7?or 6.5.hahas.i dont know

honestly, if no.8 met with an accident, what wld you do?
hmmm..it'll be a sad thing la.and i'll care.

what sport wld you play with no.12?
anything.but not soccer.

what if no.1 got a boyfriend?
wow!!it'll be a good thing of course.

do you hate no.9?
obviously not!

how much do you like no.2?
she's my son!

wld 13 & 7 make a good couple?
hmmm maybe.they might look compatible.hahas
-
wld 14 one day kill you?
hmmm i doubt she dare cause i know she loves me!!hahas

who do you like more? 3 or 10?
hmmm let's see..can i pick both?hahas.yeah.both.
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2005-12-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a long day and i got real pissed at some point..lets see.lynsze picked me up at around 145.then to mel's.we went to forum to get toys for our cousins..lynsze was picking the toys,mel was pushing the trolly and i,did nothing but walk.hahas..bought many many things and walk alot..finally went to suntec for high tea.we didnt know what to eat but i was craving for egg tarts so we went to crystal jade.it's been a long time since i went there.hahas.we talked alot and it's been a long time since i told her so much stuff!oh well.went world of sports(i think)to get mel's present.she wanted so much things.finally she decided to get shoes.so she chose many many different types.she's worse then me okay.take so long to choose shoes.and after 123456 years,she chose a nike shoe.it cost me $139.90.this is the first time i spent so much on someone la..okay then we finally got out of suntec.we wanted to go to jelita cause mum wanted us to get teriyaki sauce.but it's super crowded.so we decided to go to hollands cold storage.mel went down to get the stuff so we waited for her in the car.was pretty long but at least i had someone to keep me company.hahas.went home and got ready for the bbq..my father piss me off badly la.he was shoutig for no reason..AT me okay.wtf

woke up at 1030 today cause my stupid sister took ahem away from my hands so i started screaming at her.so i had to wake up..blah blah blah then it started to rain then i got pissed with that idiot who piss me off on the phone.so i was rather moody after that.went ps for some shit crap.he made me go..argh.oh and i saw miss sim walking out of carrefour.but i didnt say hi cause it was too late.as in i notice her when she walk pass me..hahas.i know i'm blind.hahas..going to mel's house later for countdown party.yeah.and i'm going to steal barcardi from her room..oh my.i just realise i've been kinda close to her eh..oh no.but there's nothing between us..yeah.and i'll be meeting her like 3 times next week!!oh no.that's bad.so bad..aahh.okay whatever..

2005-12-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

With You
jessica simpson

The real me is a southern girl with her Levis on and an open heart
Wish I could say the save the world, like I was super girl
The real me is to laugh all night lying in the grass just talking about love
But lately I've been jaded life got so complicated

I'm still thinking about it almost forgot what it was like
Do you know what it feels like?
Cause with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you
With you
Now that I'm with you

You speak and it's like a song
And just like that all my walls come down
It's like a private joke just meant for us to know
I relate to you naturally
Everybody else just fades away
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Just knowing you found me
Cuz I'm still thinking about it almost forgot what it was like
Do you know what it feels like?
Cause with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you
With you

Come and take me
Love you save me
Like nobody else
Now I can be myself
With you

With you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now (Baby as I do now)
Now that I'm with you

2005-12-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep..so i decided to blog..
my fever has subside but it becomes higher when i sleep.and my nose is block and it irritates me cause i cant sleep!!!i went to bed at 1130.hoping to sleep early but i only slept at 130.i dreamt of many things.weird things.but these things did happen before.but it was all the sad things.like crying and crying and crying.when i woke up,i found myself crying.like there was tears in my eyes..so maybe i did cry in my sleep?so i checked the time and it was 5 smth.tried to go back to sleep but my stupid nose keeps irritating me.so i just toss and turn on my bed.but i thought about ALOT of things..stupid things i suppose..so now i'm here..daddy just left for shanghai.will only be back on sunday..i dont think i'll go for training later cause i'm still sick.and leanne isn't too.cause she went to jb for a wedding dinner..yeah..i gotta go see the stupid doctor again cause the fever med are like gone and i still need it..i need more strepsils!!!i'm left with 2 only and it'll be gone in no time!!!

when an emotional injury takes place
the body begins a process
as natural as healing
of a physical wound

let the process happen
trust that nature
will do the healing

know that the pain will pass,
and,when it passes,
you will get stronger,
happier ,more sensitive and aware.

2005-12-09T22:06:00.001+08:00

i'm sick!!!i've fever,flu and cough..all the bad things together.yuck..could not sleep well cause i kept coughing..but i had a really sweet dream!!! i dreamt of someone!

leanne is sick too.so we didn't go for training..it's raining now and i'm feeling really sick..let's see.my temp is 38.7...oh my..i'm dying!!!my head hurts like shit!!!it's spinning..and my back hurts..

it's still so early..maybe i'll go back to sleep..yeah..i'll blog tonight again..

2005-12-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

i'm bored now..so this post will be rather random..

went to the doctor at 2..waited for hell long la..i only got to see the doctor at like 315?went in,took an x-ray and he talk abit then i came out..like less then 10 min la..and i waited for 1hr15 min..they sent me home and i was hungry.my maid was ironing so she could not cook for me so I COOK NOODLES MYSELF!!!!i did everything MYSELF execpt pouring the noodles into the bowl and bringing the bowl out..hahas too hot for me to handle!!and the noodle taste goood okay!!hahas.i did some work..hmmm maybe less then 15 sums la..and my brain felt tired.so i took nap at arnd 530.then when i woke up at 7,my head hurts like shit okay!!!

i'm stuck to dont love you no more by craig david!!okay that's all for now..

back to reality!

craig david
don't love you no more

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

2005-11-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

just talk to liwei..she's funny.she just suddenly laugh for no reason..hahas..friday's training was good.it did not really felt like it was training..maybe because there wasnt any sun? BUT,i still manage to hurt my knee..AGAIN.old problem!i seriously feel really old okay..after training,i went home,bathe and sleep!!!but some STUPID people had to call and that woke me up!wth.and i could not go back to sleep la!so i spent most of my time eating!!!!

woke up at 10 today..was looking for my banana nut crunch.but it's all gone!!!wtf.so i just watch tv till 11 then mummy sent me for tuition..it suck today!i dont know why..SHE spoil my mood!!rarr.went home myself cause the stupid car broke down.so we'll be car-less today and we need to go to aljinied la.what luck!!!i keep telling my dad to change the car cause this car has got so much problems!!so just now,i asked him to change his car and this was what we say.

me:daddy,can we change car,this car is giving you problems
daddy:so if you give us problems,we also change you is it?
me: NO.but this is different!!
daddy:what different?you want to change,you give my money.
me:why?i'm the one using it
daddy:but you sit in it
me:but you use it more often!!!

then his phone rang!!hahas..i think i've got wedding dinner tml.or is it next sat?or sun?aiya,i dont know la.but it's some people whom i dont know..so i doubt i'll go.my headache is back again!wth..going to turn in soon.

2005-11-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

i've been posted to 3j.how cool can that get la.i've got people i dont like in that class!!i wont say who she is cause after all i'm nice!.i kinda like regret taking A math..i really wonder if i can cope with it..oh well..that's all next year..have math tuition later.and it's killing me! miss chee gives me tons of work to do!save me someone!! AAHH.i was doing the trigo problem sums and since it's TRIGO,i had to use toacahsoh right..but i started using linear equation and all those funny things.and my answer was like in fraction!till i "woke" up a little,i realise how crazy i went la.it's just a matter of time i'll turn into a nerd la.

i'm missing you.

tennis with nicole later!like finally!!after a long time!have got nothing much to say now!

2005-11-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

fuck,fuck,fuck!!!i'm irritated with myself!gosh.this suck!and i've got no where else to vent my anger!!maybe i'll go talk to someone la..but seriously this suck..it all started last night when...argh i wont talk about it..it wll only make me think more and cry more!aahh.this suck and i swear it does!

town with anissa,jiarui,tia and xuanya yesterday was okay i suppose..at least they didnt find out i was not okay..was suppose to go for their bbq but i cant make it.went for math tuition instead..went to complete my service for nyaa today..yepp it ended!like finally please..going to school tml for streaming results.i'm suppose to feel excited but i dont really care now.

i really hope there will be someone who will always stay by my side no matter what becomes of me..but i think i stupidly let you go..i cant blame anyone but myself for the mess i'm in.i guess i'll just slowly pick these broken glass around me.hopefully,one of the chipped glass will slit me and let me end my suffering.

i seriously need to vent my anger on but there is no one.i mean,everyone's at camp!what a great time.when i need them the most..aahh..my head is spinning from all the drinking and i cant really see what i'm typing.shit la..my heaad hurts!!!aahh okay i'll stop here.

2005-11-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

have been doing my service work for nyaa these days and it's tiring!!
tuesday:
woke up at 730.bathe,change and mum send me to the mrt station.took the train all the way to aljunied to meet jiarui,anissa and xuanya.and i was late.took bus to the children's home with them.when we reach there,we slack alot as there were not alot of people.then jiarui and xuanya went off first.anissa and i stayed till 1130 to help them.was rather fun cause we were sorting out clothes!!took train to queenstown then cab to queensway shopping centre with anissa to get her bag..we went to see the shoe bags and i saw a black adidas one which is nice and anissa wanted that too so we both got that.but the uncle made us wait hell long as his worker have to go somewhere to get those new stock..then we walked around the place to look for the bag shop..walk walk walk..then finally we found it.she bought her bag!and she was happy and she kept telling me how worth it it is..hahas.i was really hungry so we hurried to ikea to have lunch.the place was super crowded but luckily,we did not have to wait long..i hurried to get my MEATBALLS with more sauce!!!!!!!and as usual,she got her salmon..the MEATBALLS totally rawks la..so yummy please..okay i better stop it before i drool...

walked around ikea then anchor point to get her frames and ziploc bag repectively...then she gave me a lift to queenstown mrt then i took a train home..went swimming with chester..was boring la..okay i've gpt nothing much to say..will be going to the children's home later...around 1230.yepp okay that's all for now.

2005-11-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

just woke up and i realise no one's home.wonder where they went..tuition yesterday morning.came home myself.went down for some celebrations and there was games.i played the treasure hunt game and i won the FIRST prize!!guess what was it?it's chocolate!yumyum.i felt like a kid again when i was playing.running here and there...i miss those childhood times:(oh well..went home to bathe then went out with rachel and nicole to eat..i wasnt hungry so i just watch them eat..the way they eat is cute okay.i mean it's like the same la.hahas.after eating,we went to world of sports to get nicole's tennis shoes and she was being an idiot!she kept changing her mind..one minute this shoe,then when she see another one,she change her mind.she took nearly half an hour to make her mind up la..that fickle minded girl..after buying,we walked awile then their parents came and send us back.her mummy is funny okay.kept making us laugh in the car..hahas.reach home aroung 10.bathe then i did math work till 12 plus..see i'm hard working!!!then i went to sleep..okay i've got nothing much to say now..

2005-11-01T12:31:00.000+08:00

woke up at 730..rained this morning but mum still made me go to school myself..what crap..reach school arnd 8 plus just to hand in that form..waited for dear tia for 40 mins.talked to miss sim twice bout the A math thingy.she says that we'll have to go back to school early december to take the test if we're selected..so that means more math tuitions!!

today's tia's bad day!!she kana from mrs kong,ms janson(sp?)and miss martens..for her belt.she was suppose to sew her belt before she left but miss martns told her to get out because she does not want to see her..wth can..waste of time only.mrs kong had to tell everyone abt it.including ms mak.she made tia wait for her at the bus stop and told her"they said your dressing was outlandish?"wth..she merely wore a red hairband and her socks were hidden..is that what they call outlandish?

enough of them and their stuff..went tiong with tia to get her big pork pau!she wanted char siew pau.then she change to bug chicken pau,then bug pork pau cause i told her bout bird flu..hehes..went to famous amos to get my fudge brownies!!!yum yum..oh!talking bout that i still owe KUOJIARUI cookie!!hurhur.sorry bestie!will get that for you soon..as soon as we go out!

went to the doctor again.this time to check wether my knee showed improvement..and guess what..it did!!!my dont know how many months of not playing tennis was worth it!!!yay-ness!!!which means i can contimue training!!!hahas..but the doctor told me to take care cause he says"i know you're excited that your knee is healing but please relax,anything may happen if you dont take care"and so i must becareful..hahas..okay i gotta do knee exercises now!!!

2005-10-29T14:42:00.000+08:00

started the day with mass then the concert.my butt hurts when we stand okay..sat in the hall for around 2hrs la..went back to class to get our report book and stuff.after that, miss mak gave presents to those who improve the most in various subject.then the saddening part.she took boxes of candle holders out,took one candle holder out and said:"the reason why i'm giving you this is because...(stopped for awhile to wipe tears)is because..(stop to wipe tears again and we all cried)i'm leaving the school..i knew that i was leaving in june and so i tried not to be too close to you all cause i dont want you to feel sad..i kept scolding you all because if i dont,i cant do it next year..."as she talked,anissa,xuanya,jiarui and i cried...we didn't wanted to but after we know why she scolded us and stuff then we cried..aahh sadddening..i've never cried so much in school before..it hurt my eyes okay..and besides i never thought i will cry for my teachers.maybe it's because she's been my form teacher for 2 years so teacher-student relationship develops..i dont know la...oh well...and someone told me smth which made me cry even more..but i'm glad it's alright now..hahas.i've got not much mood to say much..

2005-10-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

i cried,i cut but the pain never went away..you'll never know how much pain i'm going through..neither will you want to know..the feeling suck.i promise myself to start anew but i could not live up to MY promise..what an idiot..i'm at a lost of what to do now and nobody understand me.NO ONE will ever know what i'm going through..NO ONE will ever understand me.why the hell am i still doing here?in this bloody fucking place with not even a single soul who understand me.rarr-

i'm not feeling really well..my headache is getting worse after the fever was gone yesterday.everyone seem to be pissing me off.everything seem to make me cry.yes i want to cry.cry it all out but before i do that i always think it's stupid.like dumb to waste my precious tears over stupid things.i dont know what to do now..i stone at home and start thinking of stupid things..okay chelsy stop it..vent your anger here/now!

I HATE THE WAY THINGS ARE NOW!!tons of reason to that..one of it is that i made a WRONG choice that changed me.argh :/

I HATE MYSELF

2005-10-18T15:15:00.000+08:00

had bbq today..was fun okay..jiarui and xuanya came arnd 12 and we went to jelita to get the stuff..was super funny larh..we totally malu ourselves larh..then we took cab back to my place and the driver cant drive!!!i was like moving here and there and banging on the xuanya and jiarui..gosh..we talk and talk and talk after WE marinated the chicken wing..so funny..then we stonned till 4.we went down to get things ready.mich,karuna,siling and adeline came..we started cooking and took lots of pictures..karuna wanted to get vodka so i walk to the mini-mart with them..the uncle stopped us okay..wtf la..walk there for nothing okay..so we walked back..after a while,it rain..bad day..hurhur.jiarui and karuna kept playing with chester..esp jiarui..hahas so we eat and eat and eat till yimei came..she also eat as we still eat..then they wanted to play water as karuna was like all wet larh..yupp but the stupid guard was still there..so could not..played truth or dare and i kana alot of times okay..like 4 i think and stupid yimei!!!made me say such things out!!!rarr..played awhile more then they all had to leave..only yimei,jiarui came up to my place..walk yimei down when her dad came and it was super scary okay..like so dark and quiet..jiarui stayed at my place till 1115..went down with her and her daddy got lost..took him awhile before he could find the place..hahas..okay another one coming tml!!!hurhur..with my primary school mates..okay i'm tired now..going to sleep.

2005-10-16T12:24:00.002+08:00

exams are over!!!whee-birth.year=1979

2005-10-16T12:24:00.001+08:00

exams are over!!!whee-like finally..have been waiting for this day okay.but i dont want to get results larh..i screw up my geog paper!!!i dont know how to do the map thingy leh..hmpt-but it's over already..i'm going to play for now.bbq on tue!!yay!hahas.
may be going out on wed.cause i could not make it on friday as i gotta visit mr doctor bacause my dear knee is crying everytime i walk...sigh.he told me i pulled my muscle cause i over worked it..he guessed as much that i've not been playing tennis or awhile then i suddenly play real hard so there goes a pull in one of my muscle..till the report is out,i'm not suppose to exercise?but no way okay..i'm growing super fat..maybe when my cousin comes tml,i'll play a game or two with her..yupps.i'll just ignore what he says till the report is out.oh well,my little nephew came over.he was suppose to SWIM but he ended up PLAYING water for chester..hurhur.they are like the same age can but chester looks bigger then him or instead,he looks smaller then chester larh..but he does not talk much leh..and the way he kick the ball is like super gentle okay..gosh.but he's cute!!really..aahh okay i've got nothing much to say for now...

you shld let me love you,
let me be the one who
gives you everything you want
and need.

2005-10-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

2005-10-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

i just realise how fragile life is..
unexpected things may happen
say/do whatever you wish to before it's all too late

chinese paper on tue was alright..i UNDERSTAND the compre part ok..like finally.and i know how to answer the question la..hahas i'm proud of myself okay..math paper 2 was not what i expected..the paper was rather ok just that i forgot the formula[sp?]then i counted my marks la.like only 38.so depressing okay..i'm going for math tuition later.i must focus later!!!i've been a good girl lately..going home straight after school with bestie..she makes me run all the way to the bus stop that makes me look like an idiot..hurhur..i think drawing the reproductive system is real cool..i think its fun la..esp the male one..so funny..the female one looks kinda weird ok..i've been drawing alot for science..hahas.yupp i'm lazy to type and i'm hungry,hungry,hungry.hungry,hungry,hungry.hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry

the fact that i never really let you go.

2005-10-01T13:49:00.000+08:00

DADDY BOUGHT ME IPOD NANO!!!
like super cool..he always says no whenever i ask for it.and this time he bought it for me w/o me asking..i think there's smth wrong with him..but who cares la..hahas..ok exams..tue chinese and friday math 2..have not really started on my chinese yet but i'm doing tons of math question cause i have to beat some people in class..hmpt.

have been saying in school lately this week..and i've been eating ice-cream with dear bestie!!yumyum.and i heard things that SOMEONE said about me. like"i accuse her of...." "because i accuse her,she and someone are not talking" she also does not know why i hate her..i simply hate her to the core..because of her,everything is in a mess.she is making her class hate this particular girl BECAUSE she wants the whole class to like her when everyone hates her..such a bitch please..gosh..

ok i shan't spoil my mood..for now i'll leave this place and continue gettng music!!tata

2005-09-25T12:26:00.000+08:00

have been mugging this week..english paper on monday..got my hair cut and it really is like a broom now..but i cant not tie it.i'll look super messy..parents had a car accident so the car is in the repair and that means i'll have to wake up super early tml and go to school MYSELF..hmpt..friday as funny..durng the house election thingy and after school..

marie-ann told me to vote for weejia..hahas then when weejia was making her speech,she kept saying "go weejia go weejia" jiarui and i kept laughing ok..so funny.then after school we told her to sew her belt lower and she must cut her hair.she asked for weejia's number but i gave her jiarui's..hurhur..when weejia came,her face turn red ok so funny..when weejia saied hello to her she was like HELLO then she tolf jiarui,see i win..weejia said hello to me..hahas so funny pls..

ok tml i'll be stuck at home cause my maid will be out and the stupid car isn't here i shall study!!!hahas..

2005-09-17T14:35:00.000+08:00

finally the end of the week..lets see...i was slacking the whole week and looking back,it was such a waste larh..got to make up for it.march of the penguins was ok larh..there's this sad part where this stupid thingy comes a eat the little penguin hahas..anissa kept screaming!!!lucky it wasn't me beside her la..but other then that part,i was not really paying atention cause it was in chinese then i read the subtitle until i sleep..sleptfor a while thenn the sound woke me up la..

we found out who marie-ann lee likes!!!hahas..she says the reason why she like her is because she is a very nice person to talk to..hahas..funny ok.then she wrote comments about her photos on her blog and she did it during geog larh...she even want to vote for her as house captain leh..hurhur..

ok tuition tml 11 am..gosh i wonder if i can wake up..i have to cause i have to do well for the finals..yeah ok i'm pretty lazy now..hahas..

2005-09-08T12:19:00.000+08:00

down with sore eyes..and it really hurts ok..and it stopped me from going for training today and tuition too..so sat,have to go for tuition..i've been sleeping the whole day..i doubt i can sleep tonight la..good thing it did not affect my vision..or i'll be blind..didnt get to do any revision today..cause i was too drowsy..all thanks to the stupid medicine..and because of that,i'm rather moody..i wanted to call [you] but i guess i didnt haave the courage to do so..oh wells..the pain is killing me..and it's really itchy ok.but i cant scratch it..it'll get worse!!and i hafta go to school next week..all i did today was simply sleep,sleep and more sleep..i'm feeling like a pig now..argh..i'm not in the mood to say anymore..

that's you.

2005-09-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

just got home from dinner..really full now..i've got a really tiring week ahead.

monday:1150-chinese oral
215-math tuition

tuesday:1030-english oral
7-english tuition

wednesday:9-training
2-math tuition

thursday:215-math tuition

friday:9-training

yupp.that's my schedule for the week which exclude my OWN revision time ok..so tiring...went out with rachel and nicole for lunch and walk arnd taka.talked alot..rachel was feeling really down so i was nice and bought her a baloon..hurhur..we went to nike shop to look at tops..i bought a lime green shirt!!i think it's really nice.nicole got a pink one and rachel got the white one..hahas wantd to get it with a skirt but we didn't have enough cash..took bus to qeensway to get tennis balls..hahas.took a cab home cause we were really tired..played tennis for 45 mins and went for dinner..both our families went to that bbq place near my place and the food is really goog ok.esp the stingray..hahas..

i'm going to school earlier tm.to get help from xuanya..i cant be bothered to find out how to read those words la.hmmm i guess that's all for now..

blinded by your love-

2005-09-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

it's been a really long time since i updated.hurhur...shall keep this post short cause my sis is bugging me..since miss adeline ask me to update,i shall say a few words..yeah no school for a week..chinese oral on monday then math tuition.wed and fri,training..i WILL be there.yupps..yes laogong,no gossiping for a week.bet when we get back to school,there will be lots to say.hurhur.my phucking back in hurting .it's killing me..my report was negative.like not so serious yet..better take care of myself...gotta go for another test on the 17 of 18th of sep.and that wil determined whether i still can carry on playing tennis.yeah..oh wells..it's kinda saddening..gotta study real hard..flung my chinese and science paper.both 44.like wtf and alex happily beat me in math.i swear i'll do better for finals..ok i'll stop crapping.gotta go..

moments that are captured in my heart